I recently found out how jealousy can really kill you, yeah, softly...
though i consider myself as a positive and quite strong person, nice and kind towards other, i must admit this.. the older i became, more jelaous i feel..i do not know how to fight this...i mean, i am still learning how to win over this feeling coz i realize it brings me to nothing and can even lead me to more problems.
A friend of mine just has her luck, and somehow i feel very jealous towards her, i feel better than her and bla bla bla wa wa ..i know i should not. Instead i should be happy for her, but i do not know why...i kept on thinking on how i am better than her, and i should be the one to get that luck...why do i feel this...it really never happens to me so strong before (at least this nagging feeling)..I kept on thinking of this.. Jealousy leads us to madness..
I know and understand now that this is the time for me to be relax and trust the Big One there has His right time for me, He surely wont ignore and abandon me...I rely on You...
3 comments:
hmm... isn't it possible that the jealousy is come from The Big One?
i mean, maybe ... He feel that you a bit too comfort in your zone and actually you could do better...
just my 2c :)
I was angry with my friend:
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe:
I told it not, my wrath did grow.
And I watered it in fears
Night and morning with my tears,
And I sunned it with smiles
And with soft deceitful wiles.
And it grew both day and night,
Till it bore an apple bright,
And my foe beheld it shine,
And he knew that it was mine -
And into my garden stole
When the night had veiled the pole;
In the morning, glad, I see
My foe outstretched beneath the tree.
"My Poison Tree" by William Blake
I thought that the poem by Blake (1757 - 1827) describes your situation very well. Read between the lines... Cheers!
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